A Sketch of Me

The Early Years

It is true that what we experience in our earliest years, especially from 0-3 is crucial to our subsequent development. At birth we are already competent learners with a vast array of rich experiences from which to build. We all have individuality and our efforts and achievements need to be addressed to help attain what we have been gifted and sent here by God to achieve.

Parents, families and relationships with other people are central to the well being of our lives. That is to say if they are the right influence. Developing God given characteristics is vital to all of us as we grow; it is important to our confidence and future. Yet, sad to say it can only take one person to disrupt that process of a child's assurance of God's best for them. I can remember those "Nay Sayers.” Oh, but what satan meant for evil God meant for good.

Growing Up
During the early years of my childhood and then growing up to be a young girl, I lived with some unacceptable influences that should not have been tolerated in our home. For several years I tried to hide my insecurities and how bad I felt about myself.

I did not always have the training that was needed for my young development. Most of the time my home was like Grand Central Station; Yet, the Lord brought me to a juncture in my life, God let me know it was time to grow up and stop the antipathy and the regrets. I see no reason to rehearse those times of uncertainly and doubt. I do share as God lead’s me and when it will glorify Him. The curtain is closed and I look ahead. I praise God for watching over me even when I didn't think He was there.

God knew in those formative years that I would need a mentor. Therefore, God placed Aunt Kay in my life, she taught me Godly Christian principles most of the years that I was growing up. Aunt Kay insisted that I learn and quote scripture. Memorizing passages from the Bible was something she imparted to me at a very early age. The first two Bible verses was; “What time I am afraid I will put my trust in thee.” “I was glad when they said unto me let us go into the house of the Lord.” God’s amazing Grace brought me through those days; I can testify that His Word will not return void.

Through the Years
hrough the years, God has helped me to move past all the animosity I had stored up.
Now, I praise God that I have come to embrace the lessons that I learned and move foreword. I spent too many years blaming others and not allowing God to heal me. However, there came a point in time when God helped me to grow up and take responsibility for my own life and mistakes.

God continues showing me that life’s lessons can impart a purpose and build character which will lead to our divine destiny. It is where we place our focus. Life is a process and I do know it takes some longer than others. It does sadden me that adults never stop blaming God and everyone else for all of their troubles. That practice does not make you feel good very long. It will keep you insecure and depressed. God has said He has come to give us life and that more abundantly.

Now at 66
At this conjuncture of my life I have been given more understanding of Father God and the revelations of Him with deeper meaning than when I was younger. There will be more lessons to follow. God is not through with me yet! He spoke to me several years ago and said, “There are dimensions and revelations in me you know nothing about, will you pursue me. “

My prayer is that I will always appreciate the touch of a beautiful flower created by God, or the smell of rain as it falls to the earth, or hearing the sound of children's laughter, the joy of family, to embrace all of my children and grandchildren, to let them know their grandmother loves God, to taste and experience new things, to have the joy of reaching out and touching others through Gods love, learning new insights as God speaks to me, or the joy of seeing one born into the Kingdom of God.

God, help me to always reach for each moment and have no regrets. I must always remember to rejoice in the fact that my name is written in the Lambs book of Life.
By God's grace, He will help me to climb all the way to the top of the mountain.

One day I shall look back and say, Thank you God I finally made it!! And when I wake up, you are still with me!" Wow, I think it is time to Praise!

Loving God,
Joan